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Just came back not long .
Morning woke up at 3.30 am .
Work till 8 am .
I can see that since i work 4 am, mom is very stress .
Hais .
She giving me lot of stress by everything i do also want care .
I know some people want mom to care but don't have .
But she care too much .
Home-d and pack the room .
I clean & tidy the room .
I even sweep & mop the room floor .
Clean till 1 pm & watch tv awhile while waiting for the floor to dry .
Use lappy & off i bath .
Pack the food into container & went down .
Eat with small sister, mom & boss .
Went to work after that .
Work till 5 pm .
STRESS !
One fucking customer dam cb larhs .
He say sausage in don't know hokkien or tehchew but he point luncheon meat .
So i tell him larhs .
Guess what he say ?
He say it is in english .
Cb .
Luncheon meat in english is sausange ?
I know english derhs horhs .
PCB .
Go fcuk your mother larhs .
Shop around & went home .
I seriously dam stress .
When mom in good mood, she will play & talk to me nicely but when she is in bad mood, she shout at me .
Really dam stress .
I swear one day i can't take it, i will either jump down the building or leave this house & let them forever can't find me .
I got lot of problem .
There was once i have a friend that i tell my problem to her but she now she longer my listening ear .
I'm sad .
Now me & her totally like a stranger .
There is noone i can tell my problem already .

Edited Post
Now 7.51 pm .
AWWWW !
My blanket Fly away .
Tomorrow must buy new one .
Money fly liao .

I msged lot of ppl whether they are free .
Only one reply me .
I felt soo lonely & left out .
I felt my world is empty .
Noone is going to be there for me anymore .
I'm all alone .

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