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Baby, i just need one hearts.
Just one hearts, that is your hearts.

I feeling moody again.
I read a story and it make me moody.
Here the story:

今天期中考,学校早一点放学,我打了通电话给他。
  
我:喂,我今天比较早放学,你来载我回家好不好?   
他:好,等我五分钟。   
我:五分钟?我学校就在你家旁边耶。  
他:我总要打扮一下啊。   
我:好啦,快一点喔。  

下午2:00,太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血,我站在树荫下挥动着手,虽然没凉到哪里去,但是煽总比不煽好。  
五分钟过了,他还没来,我看看手表,有点不高兴,十分钟过了,他还没到..,该不会出了什么事吧?
呸呸呸...乌鸦嘴,十五分钟过了,他总算到了。
 
我:怎么这么慢?   
他一副无所谓的样子说:没啊,看个电视。  
什么?看个电视?你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来?
我没有说话,没有拿安全帽,没有上车的瞪着他。   
他:对不起。   

这是他第一次对我说对不起,他是一个很大男人主义,爱面子的男生,所以他从不像女生低头说对不起,我看着他,好吧,似乎面有惭色,我带上安全帽,让他载我回家。   
他总是这样,从来不解释,不争论,不跟我吵架,只跟我说对不起,有些事,不是一句对不起就能解决的,但是他都跟我道歉了,我也就没再追究下去,他说,我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。   
认错需要很大的勇气,但是他从来都没有改进他的错误,对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。在他说第59次对不起时,我流着泪,低下头说:你不要再跟我说对不起了,如果你无法改变,就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会,相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我,说了第60句对不起。   
虽然如此,他还是没有改变,不做任何的解释,我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。   

我:你最近怎么了?   
他:没有啊。   
我:那你为什么心情不好?   
他:没有啊。   
我:又是没有啊,你除了这句话以外没有别的吗?你知不知道我很担心,很没有安全感,你到底有没有当我是你女朋友?   
他:...对不起。   
我:我不要听你说对不起。   
我挂了电话,他也没有打来,他根本就不在乎我,也许,我们该结束ㄌ..........这是他说的第99句对不起....。   
从那天开始,我再也没有找过他,他也没有打电话给我,有时候,我会接到一通无声的电话,但是我喂了几声,就挂了,有一种直觉是他,但是他为什么都不说话?一个月之后,我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他,我在教室外东张西望的,就是没有看到他的人影,我随便抓了一个男生来问。  
 
我:同学,请问一下,梦伟今天有来吗?   
他:他休学了。   
我:啊?为什么?什么时候的事?   
他:他已经一个月没来了。   
我:...喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来,怎么会呢?   

我跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机:您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱,请在嘟一声...。我挂了电话,打到他家,响了好久都没有人接,怎么会?全家移民吗?他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样,没有一点痕迹。   他该不会另结新欢了吧?我开始胡思乱想,我找不到他..,正当我烦恼的时候,电话突然响了,是阿立打来的,他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。
  
阿立:喂,你还在干嘛啊?   
我:什么?   
阿立:ㄚ伟在医院啦。   
我:真的?他怎么了?   
阿立:没有啦,他在○○医院,就是你上次住的那一家。   
我:我马上去。   

我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院,在医院看到了他****和妈妈,我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后,就急忙的飞奔而去。   
他躺在床上,眼睛看着我,没有说话,没有起床,一动也不动的。
  
我:喂,你怎么了?为什么不通知我呢?   
他没有回答我,只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。   
我:回答我啊,你为什么不说话?   
他眼角留下了一滴泪,身体仿佛用了最大的力气,牵动着嘴角   
他:...对不起...。
说完,他闭上了眼睛。   
我:喂,你别装了好不好,为什么要说对不起,我不要你说对不起啊,你起来啊,回答我啊。   

我哭倒在他床边,拉着他的衣服哭喊着:你为什么要说对不起,连说服我的理由都没有?我不会原谅你,你起来啊,你说对不起没有用啊,你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你,我求求你....睁开眼睛啊...。   
这是他说的一百句对不起...一群医生和护士拉开我,开始抢救他,我全身没有力气再站起来,我的头脑一片空白,眼前一片漆黑..。   
他没有离开这个世界,只是我永远都无法触摸到他,但他有时也会在我的梦中出现,告诉我他过的好不好。   
他还是陪着我,还是活着,在我心里,他依然如昔,还是会笑着叫我咏熙,叫我老婆,只是..他不再对我说对不起了...。   
过了几个月,他妈妈来找我,给了我一个盒子,里面装的,是一百张照片,每一张照片的背面,都写着它让我生气的事情。   
第一次对不起,老婆,我今天不是故意迟到的,我也知道理由很烂,但是我真的不忍心说实话,我在出门前突然心脏绞痛,但是我已经尽量赶了,原谅我好吗?
第二次对不起?老婆,我..........   
第三次对不起,老婆,我...   ................................   ............................   ...................   ................   ...........   .........   .....   
第一百次对不起,老婆,我不是狠心要丢下你,只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子,为你带上戒指,你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩,也是我第一个想共度一生的女孩,原谅我不能给你幸福,我会化作天使,守护着你,看着你得到幸福,答应我,别哭,我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子,我爱你。bye 梦伟   
我怎么可能不哭,你的要求太严苛了,最后一张照片,是他在医院理拍的,照片上他笑的很灿烂,他变的好瘦,脸色好苍白,但是他还是露出了笑容,拍这第
一百张照片。

16122009
Woke up at 4.30 am.
Kinda tired as i slept at 2.30 am.
Work till 10 am.
Home, sleep all that.
Actually i forget what i do lahs.
I only remember i slept at 1 pm to 4.30 pm.
Wake up and bath.
Work till 10 pm.
Work was fun with love and 小馒头.
Love alway use the trick that i will give in whenever he want me to drink the water he bought.
Baddie.
Slept at 1 am.

17122009
Woke up at 12 plus pm.
Finally get to sleep so late.
I mean i alway sleep till 8 plus am or 9 plus am but today 12 plus pm lehs.
Wake up with a headache.
Use computer, tv and computer again.

Edit-ed Post
Just Back sometime ago.
5 plus pm went down to have dinner.
Home to change and head to dhoby ghuat.
Rach there at 7.30 pm.
Work till 9 plus pm ate nasi lemak.
Cab home after that.

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