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Dear blogger,

I have no one to turn in so i came to blog.
I cry but i don't know i'm angry or sad.
Quite sad and angry cause they say me & her dislike each other & very troublesome.
Seriously sometime i think i'm their dog than friend.
I also don't know what i'm to both of them.
I feel that they don't even care mine feeling.
Cause mine feeling is nothing to them.
I'm just a nothing to them.
Everytime they want go where, nevermind follow.
I want go where, you all don't want or say see first.
Is you guy make me dislike school.
Make me dislike everyone around me.
Cause i'm a nothing!
I love school actually but i starting to hate school cause of you guy.
Want me to commit?
Say i not interested in study but please commit?
What are you guy trying to say uhs?
Seriously you guy make me thing that life suck.
I feel that i'm not part of you guy anymore.
That bytch have become part of you guy.
Not as close as before already.
I'm nothing already.
You guy make me feel that alone is better.
Alone in my world and stop facing the world & human being.
I rather run & hide than facing it.
I rather staying at home than facing human being.
I rather lock myself up than facing the world.
Noone ever care about mine feeling.
Guess i should blame myself.
Cause i hide all my feeling even thought i'm sad, angry, dissapointed but i still give a smile.
Even though sometime i give the sad, angry, dissapointed face, i still say nothing.
I should blame myself cause i afraid being alone, being left alone, being in the dark so friend are important to me.
But would they be there for me?
No !
NO !
Really hate mine parent for bringing me to this world.
But what can i do?
I should stop already.
The more i continue, the more tear i drop.
I want be alone for the rest of mine life.'
I don't want any friend & human being step into mine life.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


Edited Post

Now 11.55 am & yet i'm still wide awake.
Was thinking about it & tear drop down whether thinking about it.
Maybe end this friendship would be better?
I don't know.
Feel like ending my life.
Hope GOD would take me away now.
& i would be happy.

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