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明明还是爱着你但一直在欺骗自己。

Yes, i still love him.
Yet i'm bluffing myself that i no longer in love with him.
It really hard to forget him and stop loving him.
He so handsome, nice and perfect in my heart.
He mine everything.


P/S : W is soo cute.

Edited Post
Now 2.18 am.
Day pass by, the more i think i'm not their real blood daughter.
Mother say yes, second sister exam is more important than me.
Mean i totally not important i'm her heart,
I'm nothing in her heart.
Whenever i have exam, i still have to work no matter what.
But sister can don't work cause of exam.
I having bad sore throat.
My throat is pain like fuck.
She don't even know.
Even i'm sick i still have to work.
i'm just a girl who she pick up from somewhere.
She pity me so i get to stay with them.
Two of her daughter is much more importabt than me.
I'm nothing to her. nothing to this family.
On my birthday, she gave me $60.
Today, she keep saying over and over that her money drop to the sea.
Since she gave me for my borthday, why she keep repeat it?
Everyday, i will be sad or even worst cry to sleep.
I just hope i could leave this place, this world.
She don't understand me at all.
All she know is hurt me like nobody business.
I going to 离家出走。
Any place for me to stay for the time being?

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