Hi .
6 plus am went out of my house & went to buy foolscap .
After that went to find my mother at work place to take my lunch box .
Went to festival park & wait-ed for them .
As it was late, they decide to cab to school .
Lesson as per normal .
End-ed at 1.50 pm .
Took bus 38 to east point & mom want me to buy ez-link sticker .
Bought the sticker & went to top up my ez-link .
Train-ed to tampines & bought 2 shirt for my small little sister
Then bus-ed home .
Raining heavily .
Thought of msg boy to ask him take care as it was raining heavily but i don't think there is the need to .
Cause i'm nothing to him so what for i msg him ?
Would he reply ?
NO, i guess .
Since he got someone to care so he won't give a dam to me .
Whatever .
Home-d & i was wet .
Give mom see the ez-link sticker & off i went use lappy .
I cry cause mom never buy food for me .
I did told her i want to eat .
I felt tired & fall asleep .
Woke up & play audition .
I love having mens cause whenever i have mens, my mood was dam good .
& now it going to end soon .
LOLS .
Why i suddenly talk about mens ?
SOT .
Why one by one want quit audition ?
It piss me off okay .
Nevermind !
P.S : I say SIM SHI QIANG yesterday .
I call him Alan Sim [ His father name ] but instead of chasing after me to beat me like what he did in secondary, he smile at me .
LOLS .
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Shout-ed at mom cause she say never eat yet i ask her to eat, she don't want .
Hais .
I fuck-ing cry again .
As my mom going Taiwan in March .
I will fuck-ing miss her .
This time not 1 day but is 8 days .
Last time she go Malaysia for 1 days & i cry don't know like what .
Now she going for 8 days .
How am i going to live ?
This is a first time siting an aeroplane & i afraid it might goes wrong * touch wood *
& she going for 8 days, who am i going to talk to whether i have problem ?
My mom know about me & that boy .
She know everything .
I can't stop think-ing that she going Taiwan soon .
I will cry whenever i think of it .
She will always be here for me when i need her .
But for the 8 days, how ?
Hais .
Noone can understand my feeling right now .
I wish mom will always be by my side .
This afternoon i 'm sad with her cause she never buy food for me & forget that i say yes when she ask me want eat .
I should be angry instead but sad because she never remember it .
Sometime i feel so unimportant to her & unloved that i thought mom doesn't want me anymore .
When valentine, i give her SK necklace although it not a expensive one but she happy .
She even treat me more better without any scold-ing for few days .
After that it change .
How i wish i could hug her right now & say ' Mom, i love you . Please don't leave me '
But i couldn't .
Hais .
I think i should stop writ-ing .
Cause my tear keep drop-ing .
I can't control it anymore .
P.S : Everytime i'm unhappy / sad , i tend to pretend that i'm happy infront of everyone .
6 plus am went out of my house & went to buy foolscap .
After that went to find my mother at work place to take my lunch box .
Went to festival park & wait-ed for them .
As it was late, they decide to cab to school .
Lesson as per normal .
End-ed at 1.50 pm .
Took bus 38 to east point & mom want me to buy ez-link sticker .
Bought the sticker & went to top up my ez-link .
Train-ed to tampines & bought 2 shirt for my small little sister
Then bus-ed home .
Raining heavily .
Thought of msg boy to ask him take care as it was raining heavily but i don't think there is the need to .
Cause i'm nothing to him so what for i msg him ?
Would he reply ?
NO, i guess .
Since he got someone to care so he won't give a dam to me .
Whatever .
Home-d & i was wet .
Give mom see the ez-link sticker & off i went use lappy .
I cry cause mom never buy food for me .
I did told her i want to eat .
I felt tired & fall asleep .
Woke up & play audition .
I love having mens cause whenever i have mens, my mood was dam good .
& now it going to end soon .
LOLS .
Why i suddenly talk about mens ?
SOT .
Why one by one want quit audition ?
It piss me off okay .
Nevermind !
P.S : I say SIM SHI QIANG yesterday .
I call him Alan Sim [ His father name ] but instead of chasing after me to beat me like what he did in secondary, he smile at me .
LOLS .
Edit-ed Post *
Shout-ed at mom cause she say never eat yet i ask her to eat, she don't want .
Hais .
I fuck-ing cry again .
As my mom going Taiwan in March .
I will fuck-ing miss her .
This time not 1 day but is 8 days .
Last time she go Malaysia for 1 days & i cry don't know like what .
Now she going for 8 days .
How am i going to live ?
This is a first time siting an aeroplane & i afraid it might goes wrong * touch wood *
& she going for 8 days, who am i going to talk to whether i have problem ?
My mom know about me & that boy .
She know everything .
I can't stop think-ing that she going Taiwan soon .
I will cry whenever i think of it .
She will always be here for me when i need her .
But for the 8 days, how ?
Hais .
Noone can understand my feeling right now .
I wish mom will always be by my side .
This afternoon i 'm sad with her cause she never buy food for me & forget that i say yes when she ask me want eat .
I should be angry instead but sad because she never remember it .
Sometime i feel so unimportant to her & unloved that i thought mom doesn't want me anymore .
When valentine, i give her SK necklace although it not a expensive one but she happy .
She even treat me more better without any scold-ing for few days .
After that it change .
How i wish i could hug her right now & say ' Mom, i love you . Please don't leave me '
But i couldn't .
Hais .
I think i should stop writ-ing .
Cause my tear keep drop-ing .
I can't control it anymore .
P.S : Everytime i'm unhappy / sad , i tend to pretend that i'm happy infront of everyone .
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