am i your real blood daughter ?

I dam not in the mood . I feel useless in this world . Noone love me . Noone care me . Have chinese paper in the morning at 8 am . After that went 201 to have breadfast . Then went home . 11.30 am went to meet tian xin and jackie . Then walk bus to tm have lunch . Then shop and go school . 2 pm , listening comprehension . My phone have spoilt . So went home take thing and went to simei . Quarrel with mom . Cause sister phone spoilt she lent her . Now my phone spoilt she don't lent me . Nevermind . Jackie treat me eat . Wonder why she treat me eat . Anyway i thought couple ring should guy buy for girl ? But jackies bought couple ring but she pay half the money and her couple half . Then we bus-ed home . But we sat the wrong bus so have to walk home . ;D . Suddenly it rain heavily . -.- Then we walk pass very busstop , the people in the busstop keep see us . I know why cause can see bra colour marhhs . By the time i reach home , my whole body wet . But it was fun . ;D . But i wish 我爱的人 walk in the rain with me . That will be romantic .

What am i to my mom ? I just wish that i wasn't born to this world . I wish that i have the courage or gut to jump down or even stab my heart with a knife . I shouldn't belong to this world . Now i don't wish for anything , i just wish for a DIE . Die is all i wan't . I don't feel lov-ed by my parent my friend . I tend to be happy but in my heart is all hurt an sad . I think i'm nothing to all of you . I don't blame them . I just blame myself for being in this world . All is my fault . GOD , PLEASE GRANT MY WISH . I WOULD BE HAPPY IF GOD GRANT MY WISH . i'm nothing nothing NOTHING ! GOD , why must you be so cruel to me ? HAIS . Anyway i have a blog also no use cause something i can't write in here . I write in other language because i don't want any want to know what i writing .

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Change blogskins lerhhs . Had a hard time doing this blogskins . Do it for few hours . ;D .

With the start of each new day I find myself thinking of you...
In the middle of my busy day,
my mind wanders and I think of you...
Out of nowhere I see your smile,
hear your laugh and I think of you...
Life is beautiful now because I fall in love all over again each time I think of you.