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4 day never post. Can't blame as i working early in the morning at 4 am and have to wake up at 3 am. Tired. Update from yestersday ba. 30122009 Woke up at 3 am. Bath everything and headed to work. Work till 12 am. Didn't talk to Weiliang for few 1/2 day already. Cause he too vuglar. Home, eat and sleep awhile. Bath and went to work to take otah for dhoby ghuat. Cab to tampines MRT to meet sister and headed to dhoby ghuat. Weijian at there. He bully me again. Xiao di give me one box, not real one. Between us got a glass. Weijian scare i beat him , he quickly lock the door. Head to tampines back with sister and mum. Waited for boss to pick us up and headed to joon chiat to buy thing. Me and sister went to eat roti prata while they buying thing. Cab home after that at 6 plus pm. Use computer for few minutes and sleep all the way to morning 5.30 am. 31122009 Woke up at 5.30 am. Bath and headed to work. Work was okok nahs. Weiliang did talk to m

Update again :D Woke up at 4.35 am. Bath and headed to work. Weiliang came to pack Nasi Lemak at 6 am. Ask him say slowly what he want and he purposely say fast fast. Serve him can die. Business was bad. Love came at 11.30 am. He is late for half an hour. Ask him not to touch my Lunche Meat but he still touch. Off work. Went to Yes SuperMarket to buy some bread and sour plum. Suddenly feel like eating sour plum. After that to out coffeeshop wait for mum to off work. 12 pm, mum off work. Went to Weiliang 's Mum shop to pay those goods. Weiliang wasn't there but Weijian is there. He call me 肥婆, i call him 肥公. He keep asking me to show him my phone. Opposite auntie came to ask my where is Weiliang . LOL Weijian say my face and ear red. Weiliang came back. Weijian ask to see my phone and wink at weiliang. Weiliang  ask him issit want my number. So funny please. After that Weijian quickly run away cause he know that his mum going to ask him

Let update ~ Mixed Feeling 24122009 Work at 4 am as mum when to hougang to celebrate 4th Aunt birthday. Woke up at 3.20 am. By right should be 3.00 am but last night i work till 10.00 pm. Tired as i only have 2 hour plus of sleep. Work till 10.30 am. Work was fun. Love came at 10.30 am. He bought drink for all of us. When i told him i going home, he look at him with that *WHAT* face. Everytime love bought drink for me, he have to force me to drink but you know i don't want him to buy for me cause he need to save for wedding. Yes, he going to marry on January. Why i know? Cause i talk to boss about it that he want to take off for 3 day on January. Home and eat. Sleep till 3 / 4 plus pm. Watch tv till mum is back. Mum pack curry rice from bugis. Eat and sleep till 7 plus pm. Watch tv till 9 pm and went to bath. Bus to Tampines Inter and train to dhoby ghaut with sister. Thought of finding ahliang and etc but shop close. Train to orchard. Reach there

I wanted to update but i forgot all about it. Mean hor i really must everyday if not i forget everything.

Woke up at 4.30 am. Dam freaking tired please. Work at 5 am. I wore grey colour while that rascal wore dark blue. But still boss say we still couple. Cause i wore light colour while rascal wore dark colour. Awwww. You know what that rascal say when boss say we are couple? He say okay lur you say what is what lur. So funny please. If i were him , i will denied all the way right? But he didn't. Just like yestersday he laugh while taking the stock. I wonder what he thinking? I really want to know. He like to bully me. Just like today. He want to pack Nasi Lemak and he choose those dishes. He say so fast till i take wrong dishes. Still say i stupid. Work was fine. Time pass quite fast. Love came late today. He seem no mood. I'm hurt please. He seem to ignore me. He don't feel like talking to me. What i done? He should know whatever he done/say will effect me. When he no mood = me no mood. His mood = my mood. What should i do?

LET UPDATE ! Today woke up at 4.30 am. Work at 5 am. Today again wear smae clothes with him. And kana disiao by mum and boss. Laugh. Mum say we issit plan together waer what colour clothes. LOl. He say i crazy woman. Sad die me. Boss ask me to pack those stock. So i say to weiliang : OI, quick lahs. So funny please. Tomorrow gonna wear pink clothes cause he don't have pink. Work till 2 pm. Dam tired. I sort of angry with love . I don't know why. Pack food for small sister and me. Home and eat. Sleep from 3 pm to 7 pm but still kind of tired. Wake up bath and use computer. Wrap those item as i need to post them out. 6 month 12 day, feeling is still as deep as the sea.

Baby, i just need one hearts. Just one hearts, that is your hearts. I feeling moody again. I read a story and it make me moody. Here the story: 今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。 　　 我：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？ 　　 他：好，等我五分钟。 　　 我：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。 　 他：我总要打扮一下啊。 　　 我：好啦，快一点喔。 　 下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。 　 五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？ 呸呸呸...乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。 　 我：怎么这么慢？ 　　 他一副无所谓的样子说：没啊，看个电视。 　 什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？ 我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。 　　 他：对不起。 　　 这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。 　　 他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。 　　 认错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。 　　 虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。 　　 我：你最近怎么了？ 　　 他：没有啊。 　　 我：那你为什么心情不好？ 　　 他：没有啊。 　　 我：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？ 　　 他：...对不起。 　　 我：我不要听你说对不起。 　　 我挂了电话，他也

Sorry didn't update as i was too tired. 14122009 Woke up at 3 am for work. Prepare and went to work at 3.30 am. Work quite slack as i done almost everything. At first the weiliang wear same colour and clothes with me. After that become grey. He scare wear same colour with me. You know why? Cause everytime kana disturb by my boss and some people. We alway wear same colour clothes lor. We didn't arrange to wear same clothes. So funny. I disturb boss with that auntie that their previous life is couple. Really lor. Boss say don't disturb him and that auntie or he disturb me with weiliang. Don't went mama told me that weiliang's mum like me cause i hardworking keep work. Opposite auntie who sell those noodle, laksa all those tell mum about that. Hahas. But now i don't know as something happen before. Tell mum about it that weiliang suddenly change to grey clothes is it because he scare wear same colour with me? She laugh. Work till 12 pm. Home

I'm here again. Mood wasn't very good. Woke up at 4 am as the shop late open. Not we late open is the owner of the coffeshop late open so everything is late. 4.30 am reach work place. Business wasn't good too. Around 6 am, weiliang came to buy Nasi Lemak. I asked him want eat here or packet. He say i ask extra lor. Sad die me. Pack finish, he ask me how much. I say you want pay how much then pay nor. You know how much he give? 20 cent. -.- He wanted to give more after that but it okay la. Finally he talked to me as in lot of sentence and let me serve him. Oh, he soo gay please. Finger nail soo long. 10 am, love came. Love seem like no mood and didn't talk to me. It make me no mood too. Work till 11 plus am. Pack Nasi Lemak. Home and sister order KFC. Have ny share too but due to too full i save it for dinner. Sleep till 4/5 plus pm. Bathed and use computer i think. 7 plus pm, make my KFC hot and eat it. Eat already continue use computer.

I'm here again. Gonna update everyday without fail. I trying to keep it alive. But if i really busy or no time to update, don't blame me. Hmm, today woke up at 4.40 am. Should woke up at 4.30 am but lazy. Bath all that and went to work. Mood was very good. Cause of love lahs. Love ate the baked rice i bought for him yestersday. Happy from yestersday till now. Weiliang came to sent those goods. He placed it on table and i say which rascal put here. And he use his finger pointing himself and say he is the rascal. Upper cute man. Business for today were bad. 10 am, love came. The auntie say i got mood already ah. LOL I say ya cause i late sleep and wake up early not so tired. Love say i'm a weird person [怪胎]. Sad uhs. Home around 11 plus am. Withdrawn money and bought something from yes supermarket. Bought strait time too. Homed, cook white rice. Sleep till 12 plus pm and watch tv. Ate white rice with peanut and salted egg. Continue watching tv

Changed my blogskin. Nice not? =] I thinking of finding job when Chinese New Year is over. Or maybe now slowly find. Love suggest me to go study a course so i could get a job easily. I shall think about it, Today woke up at 9 plus am. Wanted to sleep more but can't get back to sleep. Use computer for awhile. Sweep and mop the floor, wash me and sister blanket and iron my clothes. Done those chore don't till what time. 2 plus pm went to bath and prepare going out. Bus to Tampines Interchange and train to dhoby ghaut. Reached dhoby ghaut and went to the stall own by HUP LEE company which i currently working as part time under their compant located at 201. Went there a few time and even work before. The people over there was fun. Pack 3 packet of chicken baked rice for love , 小馒头 and jenny auntie. Went to buy some crystal while ah meng, the chef preparing the food for me. Total cost of the food cost me $16.50. Actually, ah meng only want to take $12 but i insis

Look at the time now. I couldn't sleep. I'm worried i couldn't find a job. 我好烦！

I'm here to update. 05122009 ; friday Satursday work till 2 pm. Homed, have my breakfast cum lunch. Went down buy strait time and fetch pig pig. She wanted to eat mac. So went to buy. Show her the guy i love. She keeping looking lor. I will jealous de hor pig pig. =< Homed, bath while she eating. Bath finish and begin to find job from strait time. Found some and called but due to too far so cannot. After that when down to yes supermarket as they finding part time cashier but no more lur. Bring pig pig to a shop selling psp all those as they finding people too but due to lot of guy, pig pig scare her boyfriend not happy. Slack and went sushi shop for some sushi and blended ice. After that bring her to take bus. Homed. 06122009 ; Sunday Work till 11 plus am. Homed. Online using phone. People came to install a dk what into the wall, Sleep till dk what time. Use lappy, went down to find mama and eat. Homed, tv and sleep. 07122009 ; Monday Work till 7

i here to rant again. I'm supper angry. don't mama know that i have sensitive skin? and is better not to share cosmectic with other people yet she borrow it to cousin. Everything think of them then me? At work my skin got abit of cooking oil jiu red liao. i have those supper sensitive skin. Watch, earing, necklance also cannot wear if not have rashes and redness. I hate sharing my thing with people. If in that case, i buy again. I hate using people use before item. Ccb ! I been cough for few week. Today smama say want buy cough medi for me, end up saying she is busy and need to cook. Everything is important than me. Totally nothin i'm nothing to her. All she know is blame me for everyhing. I'm tired of living.

Last day of school. Now gonnna find a full-time good pay job. But it seem hard to find a job. >< Anyone got job intro ?

feeling very down now. every time i asked mummy something or what, she didn't care. Everything in this world is much more important than me. She admit twice. I really don't know what reason to live on anymore. I told her something and she don't believe. I don't know what i am to her. I'm never important to her.

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Before i went out to meet sabrina and nurrahaan, let me just post abit to keep my blog alive. Woke up at 7 am. Wake up call to sabrina and nurrahaan. Use sister lappy till 7.30 am and went to bath. Called sabrina but no answer so continue using lappy till she call/sms me. 8 plus am, she called me. She overslept. Can't blame her. She working at orchard yestersday night. Hahas. I think i haing flu soon. Keep on AH CHUZXZXZXZ ! My cough not ok yet come MR FLU !

Hi, It been 6 day since i last posted. Didn't went to school since friday. Awww. No interest in school and studying so go also no use right? Tomorrow going to Tm/Cs to find full time job. I plan already. Then every month give her 200 buck and phone bill all pay by myself not like now. Now is every month give her 200 buck that include my phone bill too. Mama nagging now. Awwww. Nagging because left 1 week till exam and no school already. Bye bye

Really glad to know back some of my primary schoolmate back. Especially AHWENNN ! I glad that whenever i tell her some of my unhappiness, she will surely be there for me. I so gonna start eating dieting pill, jogging and eat healthy food. Gonna really start slimming down. JIAYOU AHWENN AND ME !!!

MOTHER IS GETTING MORE AND MORE SUCK ! ALL SHE THINK IS ABOUT HERSELF ! EVERY MONTH GIVE HER $200. ONLY $50 IS FOR PHONE BILL. SHE $$ FACE ! I USE MINE OWN MONTH TREAT SISTER AND MYSELF HAIR TREATMENT ALSO CAN'T. I WONDER I'M HER REAL DAUGHTER ? TODAY ME AND SISTER AT SALON DOING TREATMENT. SHE CAME TO SALON AND BEAT US. SHE DON'T GIVE US FACE YET WANT US GIVE HER FACE !

Hi, i back to school to study already. Sian nor. I get to contact back Analiza, Valerie Heng & Valerie Cai already. Hahas. We get our PSLE result and we didn't contact till now. 4 year plus already. P/S: Does anyone know any matter of slimming down ? Tag me if you know.

can't i have the right to quit school? even my mama let me quit lor. But teacher fucking irritating keep call. I have no more interest in study. I prefer working than study. I want quit mean i think through it and have decide on it. Now saying that want come my house. Hate it man.

Guess what i dream ? I dream that i pregnant for 3 month. At that time, dk why like water bag bust. I so scare. But end up nothing. I sayang my tummy say must guai guai. My baby reply me. Baby even talk. I kana shock till fall down. I talk again and baby reply very soft. I was so scare that that fall will lose my baby. P/S : w love baby too.

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. I found mine but his heart doesn't belong to me. So now i still have to find a new one that totally belong to me. Lappy have sented to hospital. Awww. Poor lappy. So gonna buy a new one once i have earn enough money.

The day before yestersday, i dream of me and that small little 16 year old boy together. We even slept together. Yestersday, i dream of w and the one i love. Such a sweet dream.

Yes, i still love him. Yet i'm bluffing myself that i no longer in love with him. It really hard to forget him and stop loving him. He so handsome, nice and perfect in my heart. He mine everything. P/S : W is soo cute. Edited Post Now 2.18 am. Day pass by, the more i think i'm not their real blood daughter. Mother say yes, second sister exam is more important than me. Mean i totally not important i'm her heart, I'm nothing in her heart. Whenever i have exam, i still have to work no matter what. But sister can don't work cause of exam. I having bad sore throat. My throat is pain like fuck. She don't even know. Even i'm sick i still have to work. i'm just a girl who she pick up from somewhere. She pity me so i get to stay with them. Two of her daughter is much more importabt than me. I'm nothing to her. nothing to this family. On my birthday, she gave me $60. Today, she keep saying over and over that her money drop to the sea.

Hi, Woke up late for work. I woke up at 4 am. Quickly rush. Work till 7 am. Work finish help mother take thing home. Using lappy now. Later going out with tian xin.

Now 12 plus am already. Birthday over. Why parent will forget about my birthday? Issit i'm not important or i'm just nothing in their heart? Just now thought of commit suicide. Forget my birthday nevermind but mum say does hurtful thing. Am i their real blood daughter? I been asking myself this question for year. I never once feel that i'm one of them. Never did i feel loved by this family. I really feel like commit suicide. So i won't feel sad & unhappy. Why can't they let me feel loved in this family. Anything goes wrong, i would be the one scolded by father. Even if is sister wrong, i'm the one who get scolded. I have been unhappy for day & noone know. Mother alway thought that i trying to run away from work cause of him. But no matter how much i explain, she keep on repeat that i don't work cause of him. I don't know what i suppose to do nor say already. I gave up. I no longer could stand it. I could say that if i really

Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead, Just walk beside me and be my friend Today is my birthday. But it seem like noone remember it. Even mama too. Every year, before she goes to work, she will make red egg for me. Now none. I'm very sad. Feel like crying too. Only Guan hao[see my facebook & when counting down to 16 day than wish me. Mean 5 october already wish me.], Gracia [See my msn nick yesterday] & Bee [Yestersday see my facebook] wished me. Today he not in singapore too. He went back to malaysia. Don't know why he choose to off today. Sad die me. Make me feel life soo meaningless. Edited Post Parent forget about my birthday. 1 pm out of the house & bus to tampines interchange. Shop alone till 4 pm. Meet angie for sushi tei. She bought a mini medoly cake. So nice of her. Wanted to watch movie but the timing cmi. Shop around till 7 plus pm & went home. Msg dad that is my birthday and

Ello, See the time i blogging right now? Today nono Yesterday, woke up at 9.30 am. Use lappy till 10.30 am. It like OMG gonna late soon. Bath all that & cabbed to school. School was okay :D School till 4.30 pm. Cab home as later working. So home & sleep awhile. End up overslept. So didn't went to work as sister helping me. Bath & study for BEO. Headache sia cause i hate this subject. Study till 11.30 pm. Was like hmmm hungry. So went to put water on the wok & on fire. Second sister heard it & offer to cook for me. Really touch by her. Almost cry. Thank sister. I love you althought your temper is bad. Really hungry till within few minutes i finish it. Pack my thing & off i use lappy. 简单的生日愿望是能见到他就开心了。 对，我是每天多能见到他。 但星期三他没做工。 好想和他说话。 好想见到他。 好想像过去一样。

Ello, Thing are alright now *I think so* Just hope that we could be like the past. Birthday is coming soon. But i have to work on that day. I alway wish that on my birthday, someone i love or someone who love me came to me with two ticket. Guess what ticket is that? Is Singapore Flyer ticket. He drive me there or we cab there. That is super romantic. 现在事情都没有问题 *因该是 * 只是希望我们能够像过去一样。 生日即将到来。 但那天我得做工。 我一直希望在我的生日那天，我爱的人或爱我的人拿着两张票来找我。 猜猜是什么票？ 是新加坡摩天轮门票。 他驾我或做的士去那里。 这是超级浪漫。

No longer friend So what for contacting? Didn't went to school again. Thing happen yestersday. Don't know how to face him anymore. Cry so badly about it. I need a break. I need someone to be there for me. I alway waiting for my birthday & soo happy for it but now not at all.

Me & two four year of friend are no longer friend anymore. I mean it. They are too much. On 2 october, we already no longer friend. Everything is obvious at 3 plus pm. They rather want her than me. I know what the answer i alway wanted to know. Thank. Going school soon. I'm still in holiday mood. T.T Woke up at 3.30 am. Work at 4 am till 6 am. My pig suppose to work at 6 am but he late lahs. F.Y.I: We are not together nor he know i love him. Home, eat my nasi lemak & sleep till 9.30 am then bath. Finally get to eat. Me since Satursday night never eat till this morning then eat. Awwww. Edited Post Now 12.45 pm. Just read my past post & i cry. Awww. after school going to buy contact lens with ANGIE

Ello, came to post before sleeping :} Woke up late for work. Suppose to wake up at 4.30 am but wake up at 6 am. Mama called me. Bath all that & went for work. Work was fine just that i don't know why i keep give the wrong change to customer & forgeting the price. Work till 11 am. Homed & use lappy till 1 plus pm. Order Mcdonald. Sleep at 2 plus pm & woke up at 3 pm. Bath all that & went to work. Working with him was fun okay. If he don't mention the girl name lahs. He mention & i won't talk to him so he don't dare mention. 'She' visit me today. Sian nor. Work till 10 pm & home sweet home.

Love someone who love you & not you love him/her I'm here to post! Anyone miss me? I hope there is. Hoping for more tag pleasee. Today woke up at 8 am due to stomache. Use laptop till 9 am & went to bath. 9.40 am went to work. Work was fine just that that idiot like to use a girl who work in dhoby ghaut who name as ah yue to make me. I alway angry because of that. Around 4 plus pm, i say forever don't want talk to him & he say sorry blablabla. But i still angry. Oh ya, mama called me around 3 plus pm to tell me that weiliang's mother ask her what is my surname. And weiliang finally talked to me. But he called me siao zabor it mean crazy woman. 5 pm ended work & packed mac home. Eat & watch tv till 8 pm. Went to bath & use laptop. Facebook, plurk & check email. :D That all.

4 month 2 day, i still loving you deeply Finally finish changing my blogskins. Nice? Hmm, 3 more day to school reopen. Don't like no no is Don't want school reopen. Hate school and those friend around me. Not all friends only some . But i know Angie and Tian xin will alway lend me their ear when i'm unhappy or something. I love them to the max pleasee. Shall post till here. Have to wake up at 6 am to have breakfast with second sister & work at 10 am. You guy no longer no friend. You guy take me for granted. You guy rather listen to 4 month of friend then 4 year plus of me. I'm dissappointed and sad. But no matter what, i have enough of it. Good bye, my friend.

About 8/9 day no update already. Now having 3 week holiday. Working for this 3 week holiday ba. Earn more money. This year study finish, maybe quit school already. Cause i afraid of knowing new friend & those monster.

I feel that they don't want me as friend anymore. Sms them no reply. I feel that she totally replace the place i'm.

Ello, i'm here just to wish A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Babe, stay pretty & strong forever. :D

I'm back to blog again. I'm soo happy to know that actually i have many true friend. On thursday, that india girl find problem again. I go to school myself, lesson & lunch break with angie. Unless lesson that need group work then i will join them. But she still not happy with it. When i with nurnur & sabsab, she trying to kick me out of the group. Now i with angie, she want to kick me out of the class. I break down. But lucky this thing happen cause i found out that actually i have alot of good friend by mine side. I know Ahyeen, Susanna, Sabsab & Nurnur will alway be there for me. But since this girl came, i tend to feel that nurnur & sabsab have been a stranger to me. But lucky i have ANGIE with me. She will alway be there for me. I know whenever i need her, she will just be there for me without saying any word. Whenever i ask her out, she will go out with me without any reject. Here are what i want to say to them althought they might not see it. ANGIE Thank f

Ello, Here to update. 25 August 2009 Didn't went to school. Actually i already wke up at 6.30 am & prepare. Prepare finished & msg nurnur & sabsab. But they no reply. So called sabsab house, she say she on MC. So called nurnur but no answer no matter how many time i called. She 8 plus/9 plus am then reply me saying that she gastric pain, going to see doctor & will msg me after that. So after like 1 hour or so, i msg her whether still going orchard & hope she can. But no reply. So went to sleep till 11 plus am. See phone but no reply from nurnur. So nevermind. Msged Angie whether she want to go orchard. She say she going movie with wendy & asked me to join them do. So okay norhs. Went to bath & bus 291 to Tampines interchange. Meet them at MRT station. Went to buy ticket for Orphan. Since we still have about 1 hour to eat so we went food fourt for lunch. Ate finish & we still have time so shop around. Time for movie & i bought drink in. First part

23 August 2009 Wasn't good day for me. I angry with everything. Angry with what i wear, what i'm & everything. Work till 11 am. Home, used lappy & went to bath. Bus 291 to tampines library & change to bus 27 to hougang. Train to orchard & shop around ION & far east. Wanted to bus home but something happen between sister & the bus driver. Overall is the bus driver wrong. I gonna make a complain & demand a apolgy from the bus driver. Train home & something happen again. The door closed on me. Home at around 5 plus pm. Use lappy awhile & fall asleep till 10 pm. Woke up, change clothes & use lappy. Changed blogskins for almost 2 hour. Sleep at 1 plus am. 24 August 2009 Woke up at 8 plus am. Use lappy till 9.30 am & went to prepare for school. Meet nurnur at 10.30 am. Sab didn't went to school as she's sick. Hope she is fine. Reach school at 11 plus am. Now POA lesson doing project yet i'm here to blog. Oh ya, i just now helped

Lot of thing happen today. One whole night keep thinking that all this happen is mine fault. If i'm okay with her all this won't be happening. But i can't force myself to like or okay with her. I don't know how to face them and those friend. Everyone is seem helping and siding her. Maybe i out of their group and life everything would be fine. But i still can't face them. Sorry...

I cry after reading sabsab blog. I can't bear to break the friendship with both of you too. Whereever i need someone is school, you both will be there for me. Yes, since that bytch came, i feel being neglect. I miss the time when we talking nonsense & laughed. But since she joined us, everything change. Change to i rather be quiet than talking nonsense & laugh. Change to i rather went home straight than going shopping, eat or anywhere. I rather be alone if she is with us. I rather be quiet if she is with us. I rather not ask her to join us since she came from the first days if i know she's a attitude & etc girl. Now i rather be alone, doing thing alone & everything cause i don't want that bytch to be with us so i choose to be alone.

I think i feeling fine already. Maybe is only temporary. To say the truth, i want that india girl out of the group. I don't want her. I want everything back to normal. :D Today have a good chat with Angie. But that bytch keep stare at her. TO THAT BYTCH : I KNOW YOU WILL BE VIEWING MINE BLOG. I DON'T GIVE A DAM. I WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU & OUT OF OUR GROUP. & STOP STARING AT ANGIE UHS. STOP ALL YOUR LIE. KEEP SAY THAT YOU WILL CHANGE. END UP? CHANGE YOUR CB MAN ! I REALLY WANT TO OUT OF OUR LIFE. I HATE YOU TO THE MAX. MAX TILL EXPLODE ! CHAGE YOUR CB.

Sometime i feel like leaving this world. Maybe i would be more happy when i'm in the other world? All i know is leaving this world would be the best. The only thing i wish for. I will be privating my blog soon or change my url. Reason ? Cause that bytch seem to know mine URL. Starting from tomorrow? I don't want anyone to read mine blog. Blog is the only place where i can write all mine unhappy thing in it. Maybe those who want me invite them can leave their email address on mine tagboard. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Now 1.20 pm. I angry/sad or whatever emotion. I feel that they are torturing me. I can't take it anymore. I giving up soon. I giving up on the friendship with them. I can't stand it anymore. I wish to continue my friendship with them but they seem to be geting far from me. Not that close anymore. They are more close to that bytch. The bytch trying to chase me away from them. I will let her win. Cause i can't take it anymore. This is not mine fault. Or i should

Dear blogger, I have no one to turn in so i came to blog. I cry but i don't know i'm angry or sad. Quite sad and angry cause they say me & her dislike each other & very troublesome. Seriously sometime i think i'm their dog than friend. I also don't know what i'm to both of them. I feel that they don't even care mine feeling. Cause mine feeling is nothing to them. I'm just a nothing to them. Everytime they want go where, nevermind follow. I want go where, you all don't want or say see first. Is you guy make me dislike school. Make me dislike everyone around me. Cause i'm a nothing! I love school actually but i starting to hate school cause of you guy. Want me to commit? Say i not interested in study but please commit? What are you guy trying to say uhs? Seriously you guy make me thing that life suck. I feel that i'm not part of you guy anymore. That bytch have become part of you guy. Not as close as before already. I'm nothing already.

1 month 28 days & still loving you 3 day to 2 month 我爱死你 She say sorry to me. Big fcuk? I don't give a dam.

1 month & 26 days & i still loving you deeply Ello again. I need someone to help me change my blogskins. I see until sian liao. That why don't feel like blogging. Today school was very very fun. LOL Know why fun? Cause i crazy mahs. Woke up late. I set wrong alarm. Called sab & went to bath. Sab also late. Went to her block to find her. Althought we are late but we still went for mac breakfast. After went to school. SMB lesson sibei fun. I beat teacher. He say beat is love 打是爱. He say bread talk & ask me not to think of bed talk. LMAO. I strangle him cause he call me pig ! He call me maid also cause i never wear shoes. Fun right? I have a new baby. But my baby is weird. Instead of making baby sound, she make MEOW sound. ( hor sheila? ) TOday that india dam cb again. I say the pic dam nice & she straight away just say not nice. Fuck right? She better not me fed up or else i BOMB & she gonna get a scolding/shouting from me. TEACHER LIKE MY IDEA OF PASTEING CRY

Ello, I'm here to blog. If not someone say i no blog ( hor tian xin ? ) Yesterday 27 july 2009 Work at 3.30 am to 8 plus am. Mama call me when i already outside the house. She asked me to buy food from mama shop at house downstair. But i don't want cause tired. Went to room & play lappy. Mama still haven off air con. I talk to her she don't want reply cause i don't want buy food for her. GUESS WHAT I DID THEN SHE REPLY ME ?! I farted . :X Sleep till 12 plus pm. Use lappy then went to bath. Bus to tampines inter & train to raffle place to collect thing. After that train to somerset. Waited for tian xin nuer. While waiting, i went to bought food from 7-11. But hor eat liao stomach pain. Tian xin nuer came & off we went buy ticket for murderer at 4.25 pm. Shopped around. Bought pop corn & nanchoo. Went in & watch show liao. Me keep use my half cardi cover my hand. Tian xin nuer touch me twice & i kana scare ! Movie finished at 6 plus pm. Shopped ar

Ello, Didn't went to school. Not interested in school. Don't like go school too. Feel like quiting school. Edited Post Now 4.38 pm. Feeling moody. Cause birthday in 2 month plus. But every year is a lonely birthday. No present, no anything. This year birthday, i wish for lot of present but the best pressent i wish for is him to celebrate with me. But i know is impossible. Hais. Dam fucking moody now till want cry. MAMA WANT ME TO FIND BOYFRIEND. ._.WHO WANT BE MY BOYFRIENDS? BUT I TELL YOU FIRST, NO FEELING DE PLEASE. ONLY MY ♥ WILL ALWAY BE IN MY HEART.

Does anyone know where sell cheap SWAROVSKI CRYSTALS ? Do tag me if you know okay? Thank You.

Just came back not long. Hmm, work till 11 am. Waited for mom to end work till 12 plus pm. Homed & lappy till 2 pm. Went to bath & continue using lappy. Wake mom up at 3.30 pm. Went to tampines mall. Went to eat din tai fung eat. I pay for it. Cost $40. After went to find buy hairband. I bought 7 of it. Cost $40. Then went to collect mom watch. I bought a necklance watch for $115. As i'm allergic to those watch wear on wrist. Shop-ed around till 6 plus pm. Went to aunt house take thing & cab home. Today spent total of $200 & Mon to fri spent $90. Total spent $290 for this week. Broke lurhs. AWWW. START SAVING LIAO LARHS.

OneMonthFourDays I feel like i pregnant like that. Cause everyday i will crave for food. It like yesterday feel like eating chicken wrap, today feel like eating prawn. If i crave for it, i MUST get to eat it. Just like today afternoon, i crave for sour plum & i really went to buy 4 packet of it. Mother ask whether i pregnant not.

OneMonthThreeDays Shall do a proper update? Woke up at 6 am. Bath-ed & used lappy till 7 am. Walked to Mama shop to meet mine beloved nurnur & sabsab. Although sometime i really fed up with them but they are the one that i can go crazy with them. But sabsab was late so me & nurnur went first. I wasn't in mood. Cause i having headache. Lesson was fun. Have lunch with nurnur, sabsab, eva, susanna & the new india girl. WOAH, say till this india girl i dam angry can. She cb siahs. The second day she came, me, sabsab & nurnur ask her to join us sit together & have lunch together. So that time i still okay with her. But yesterday, when having SBM lesson, teacher ask us the think five idea/suggestion on what to sell. Because we going to think, make a proposal give teacher, teacher will help us make some changes, pass the proposal to the head master or what & if the proposal approve we will get $500 to start the business. So i give an idea of selling cute thumbd

I crazy over bag. I bought 4 bag on blogshop. Hehes.

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Thought of going daddy house to visit him with mom. But afraid that we might cry infront of him. Really hope everything will be fine for him. :D

Feel like doing hair extention. But it like very waste money. Edit-ed Post Heard a bad news from my aunt. Aunt called & said dadddy is have cancer with tear. " My uncle is diagnosed with final stage of lung cancer... " <- Taken from my cousin. Daddy's a very nice person. Whenever i have problem, he will be there to help me. He will be there for everyone. Just like when i having police case on the chinese new year. He came to the police station to help me as i don't want mine dad to know about it. You know, chinese new year go police ststion is kind of bad luck. But he still came to help me. He even drove me to clementi regarding about this police case. He such a nice person, why god must let him suffer from this? Now what can we do? " He is having final stage of cancer... He can't even haf operation to remove the cancerous part as the cancer cell already spread in his body... He can't even do therapy now coz doctor dun even noe whether his body can

THE 100 QUESTIONNS . 1. Real name - Yeeling/Catherine 2. Nickname(s)- Ah girl 3. Star sign - Libra 4. Male or female - Female. 5. Elementary - What this? 6. Middle School - What this? 7. High School - What this? 8. Hair color - Brown-black 9.Long or short hair- Long 10. Loud or Quiet - Quiet 11. Sweats or Jeans - None 12. Phone or Camera - Both please 13. Fruits or fried foods- Fruit 14. Drink or Smoke? - Drink what? 15. Do you have a crush on someone? - Yes 16. Eat or Drink - Both 17. Piercings - Ear 18. Tattoos - No 19. Been in an airplane - No 20. Been in a relationship - No 21.Been in a car accident - No 22. Been in a fist fight - No 23. First piercing - Ear 24. First best friend - I don't know 25. First award - I don't know 26. First crush - I don't know 27. First fashion sense - Huh? 28. First vacation - Genting 29. Last person you talked to - Mom 30. Last person you texted - Unknown guy 31. Last person(s) you watched a movie with - Sister 32. Last food you ate - Big

I dream of him & me. Me having his baby. Hopeing that this dreaam was real but ... Create a blog to post about me & him. Private it cause there some reason i cannot be with him so i private it & say the reason in it too.

So long never blog lurhs. Anyone miss me? Till now i so in love with him. Sometime i still cry while missing him. I wish he was mine. I want to have a family with him but impossible. I need him badly in mine life. I want him call him laopo again.

I'm soo happy. Cause i get to see him for 3 hour. He asked me to sign contract with him that once i reach 18, i married him. LOL He say i'm his wife. Happy but there a reason i can't be with him. When i'm with him, time pass dam fast. Awww. 5pm i have to go. He asked for goodbye kiss. But i dk goodbye kiss is kiss where so i ignore it. LOL. Love die him.

昨天，我哭着睡觉。 我在想那个理由。 那个理由为什么我不能和他在一起。 他今天晚上十点多就会回去马来西亚看老婆。 他说他回去看大老婆。 我现在好像他。 他大概明天晚上就回来吧。 刚才我要回去的时候，他叫我看他最后一眼。 我不管它有老婆和孩子。 只要能和他在一起，我就心满意足。 我现在好想哭。 我好像马上看到他。 我的心以素以他了。

Didn't eat anything from yesterday till now. Hais. That cb auntie go tell mom that i keep beat 小小弟. Then mom ask me don't beat him & now she like dw me work afternoon. )= I go tell 小小弟 then he say is not beat is sayang. Hahas. Cute siahs. 5 pm went home. 小小弟 ask me give him goodbye kiss. He say cannot use hand kiss derhs. LOL. Of course i didn't kiss him but i beat him. :X

我爱上了一个不能爱上的人。 他结了婚，有了三个孩子。 昨天，他叫我做他的二老婆。 但我知道他是开玩笑的。 我该怎么办？ 他还说如果他还没结婚，他会来追我。 我听了，非常得开心。 我爱上了他了。 啊! 啊！我该怎么办？ 我的心再哭。 Edited Post 10.27 pm now. Just came back from work not long. 我非常得开心。 刚才他不董叫我什么。 我就对他说：“刚才你叫我什么？” 他就讲他叫我啊girl 我就说刚才那句。 他说小老婆。 他叫二妹买水，他给钱。 我说我不要不要喝。 他就叫二妹不要理睬我。 他就是要买给我。 那我就把他卖给我的水放在纸带守在冰箱力。 九点多，小弟来但我没心情。 他买水给大家。 我就笑。 小小弟就吃醋。 哈哈。 他叫我明天买爱心早餐给他吃。 我越来越来的爱上他了。 他还叫我把他买给我的水拿回家抱。 我说抱你头。 他就把他的头接近我叫我抱。 我反而拉他的头发。 我原意当他的二老婆。♥ Full of happiness & sadness in my heart. I have not eaten for the whole day. Bye.

03062009 Woke up at 8 am. Use lappy till 9 am. Prepare & going to meet nurrahaan & sabrina at 10 am. Sabrina texted me say meet at 10.15 am. So okay lorhs. So ended sabrina say her dad drive her to school at 10.30 am. I called nurrahaan she say just bath finish. After texted me say meet at school. I told them i hate being alone. Yes, tear falling down. They hurt me lot of time. First few, i forgive and forget. Slowly, i forgive but couldn't forget. Now i can't forgive and forget. I treat them good but they take it for granted. This is what i get from them. Ended up they cab to school together. So i cab to school norhs. Texted Angie. Meet her at level 3 indoor sport hall outside. But i feel guilty. Everytime i angry/sad/disappointed/fedup, i will find Angie. But to say the truth, Angie group make me feel that i'm part of them. :D Exam till 1 pm. Minutes of meeting dead. 30 mark gone. Aww. Cab to 201. Bought Mac and home. Eat & went for work till 5 pm. Xiao di cam

Woke up at 7 am. Auto wake up derhs. Just nice sleep 8 hour. LOL Use lappy till 8 plus am. When to bath all that. Actually meeting sabrina & nurrahaan for breakfast but they last minutes don't want. I hate it okay. Meet sabrina at 10.15 am. Walk to inter & meet nurrahaan. Cab to school cause exam at 11 am. Reach school at about 10.40 am. Buy drink & waited awhile before going indoor sport hall for exam. Have to go through a machine that check temperature. I use like half an hour to finish it. 8 question blank, 29 mark. Too hard uhs. finish at 12.35pm. Extra 5 minutes. When Expo MRT to meet er meimei before meet mom & small meimei. Mom & small meimei went insde the 美食展 so have to find them. I tell you it very crowd & i lose my temper. Mom found a table to sit. So me & er meimei go buy food then their turn. Lot of people asking whether got ppl sit norhs. I fed up. Got one auntie even talk back. She say she only want put thing. I say got people sit lurhs, S

Hmm, today woke up at 6.30 am. Prepare & went out at 6.55 am. Meet nurrahaan & sabrina at the usual place. Walk halfway through, called sab. They both just wake up. So nvm norhs. I went sabrina house viod deck wait for her. Bus to school. Was LATE ! Exam till 10.30 am. Bus to 201. Find mom but she 2 pm then finish work. So bought food & home. I feel like eating this & that. End up force myself to eat finish. Use lappy, went to sleep. Woke up at dk what time. Headache, eat panadol. Use lappy till now. That all.

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Started to hate my life. Started to feel that life is meaningless. Feel like ending my life. Could i?

Woke at 4 am. Cause mom woke up late so i have to go down early. Tired okay. Work till 12 pm. Home, lappy & eat ba zhang. Bath & continue lappy till now. Bye. I dream. My dream was weird. Tian Xin nuer & Wei Siang future son-in-law was in my dream. In my dream, i saw Wei siang future son-in-law & run away. He chase me. I don't know why. So i hide in a bubble tea shop. I hide in the counter inside. I saw him but he never saw me. Soon, i saw him with nuer siting in the bubble tea shop together. I even ask the auntie to teach me make bubble tea. LOL Weird dream.

Yo! Woke up at 3.30am. Went down to help & let mom sleep more. work till 6 am. Mom came at 5 am. She thought 6 am already. Pack food home to eat. Sleep at i-don't-know what time till 11 plus am. Use lappy & bath. Meet tian xin at about 1 pm. Bus to bugis. Went new shopping centre. Wanted to watch The Uninvited but don't have so went bugis junction. Also don't have so we watch Terminator Salvation at 4.30 pm. Shopped around, looking for bag for mom birthday but nothing is nice. Bought nancho & went in. Dam cold siahs. But the movie is nice. Watch till 6 plus pm. Toileted & shop aat bugis street. Bus home after that.

Emily is my best sister on the 27052009;2005. We both love baby & want a baby asap. From passerby to best sister. Sister ♥ LET UPDATE! 27052009 Woke up at 7am. Thank to my sister._. Didn't went to school again :X Teck leng; Maple dear asked for stead. But i didn't accept. Lappy the whole day. But also got do homework larhs. 10 plus pm went to sleep. 28052009 Woke up at 3.30am. Went to work cause boss watching soccer will be late. LOL Mean he never sleep.Work till 6am, eat & homed. Use lappy till 8 plus am. Went to sleep till 11 plus am. Woke up & help-ed mom. Play-ed happy farmer at facebook. Qiliang alway sabotage my plant. Keep put worm on my plant. I admit i put worm also but everytime feel guilty then go tell him. LOL. Later then update. Edited Post Now 8.47 pm. View & read other blog to kill my time. Click it I was sad to read this. Why those parent who give birth to their own baby but abuse them? Bite mark throughout her whole body. Her mother bite her. Fa

Hi. Woke up at 9 am. Lappy till 11 plus am. Iron clothes. Okay larhs. One side iron clothes, one side lappy. 12 plus pm went to bath. Prepare & went down find mama. Mama went to market buy thing & cab-ed to hougang. Went 四姨 house. Then blablablabla. Don't wish to say soo much cause i'm tired. Bused home at 8pm. I went to buy thing before finding mama & boss. Homed at 9 plus pm.

Woke up at 8 am. Try to sleep back but can't. Stone awhile & mom is back to bath & go back work again. She bought ji zhong fan for me to eat. She went back to work & i use lappy. Hang clothes. Mom back at 10 plus am. I use lappy till 4 plus pm. Mom went out at 11 plus am. Went to bath & out with 三妹 to tampines mall to shop. Meet 二妹 at Tampines 1. Mom came to find us. Bought 4 bird nest mask ($15.80), 1 hand cream($15.50) for mom, nail polish($4.90), Pen/ruler($7 plus). Spent almost $50. Heart pain. Nvm. i almost using net for eveything. :D Cab back at 9 plus pm.

Woke up at 5.30 am instead of 5 am. Work till 12 pm. Homed & eat lor mee. Sleep awhile & went to bath. Went back to sleep at 3 plus pm till 9 plus pm. Used lappy & now eating zhong zi. I read etrini blog. I read this till cry. 七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。 男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。 ——纯纯的“对不起”。 男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。 ——“对不起”的快乐。 大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗